Even when it doesn't feel like it sometimes.

Been up and down again lately - nothing really horrible or outstanding, even if it feels like I haven't done anything meaningful or of note for months.

It feels sort of like I'm lurking through life...trying to stay in the background even if I don't know why.

I know I've been letting people down again, and losing contact and touch with people who mean the world to me, but general lethargy and a feeling of general worry keeps me from doing anything risky.

I don't know, I'm rambling...it's late at night, and bleh.